I was in love with my fiance for 2 years. We struggled a lot to convince our families to accept our relationship. It was a dream come true for me when they did. But he started drifting, he was no longer the same man I fell for, maybe because of the acceptance issue from our families, or his workload. Anyway, I wanted to marry him at all cost.
There was another guy in my office. He liked me, but I didn’t feel the same way about him. We were just normal friends. I made it very clear from the beginning that I was about to get married to the love of my life, but one day I had a huge fight with my man, he made me feel unwanted and didn’t pick my call for a whole night. I became so vulnerable. I called the other guy, just to catch up for dinner but unfortunately, I got drunk and went to his place. He forced himself on me. Though I was too drunk, I slapped him, but he forcefully touched me in very intimate ways…I got carried away and then he inserted himself inside me, after that he did it again and I couldn’t stop him. The next morning, he did it again, unfortunately I enjoyed it and then he dropped me home. I felt so guilty, but I was also afraid that he might take it as a 1-night stand and tell everyone about it. So, I kept in touch with him. I cried a lot. Gradually he made me feel like he loved me, and I started spending time with him although I didn’t feel good about it and I knew it was wrong, but he made me feel so special that I couldn’t resist, and we went under the sheets several times.
Just few weeks before the wedding my fiance got to know that I was spending time with someone else, I tried to fix it and apologized but he cancelled the wedding. It’s been 2 years now, I still miss him and regret my actions, but I felt left out and ignored that was why I tried to divert my mind, but it led to that situation. Though my ex fiance didn’t know about the physical thing, he just lost his trust and left me.
Now, I am married to someone else, for a year now and a lot happier but I still feel the pain, I still feel that void sometimes. I miss him, and I love him.
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