Rape

Anonymous Story: He Forced Himself On Me.

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I was in love with my fiance for 2 years. We struggled a lot to convince our families to accept our relationship. It was a dream come true for me when they did. But he started drifting, he was no longer the same man I fell for, maybe because of the acceptance issue from our families, or his workload. Anyway, I wanted to marry him at all cost.

There was another guy in my office. He liked me, but I didn’t feel the same way about him. We were just normal friends. I made it very clear from the beginning that I was about to get married to the love of my life, but one day I had a huge fight with my man, he made me feel unwanted and didn’t pick my call for a whole night. I became so vulnerable. I called the other guy, just to catch up for dinner but unfortunately, I got drunk and went to his place. He forced himself on me. Though I was too drunk, I slapped him, but he forcefully touched me in very intimate ways…I got carried away and then he inserted himself inside me, after that he did it again and I couldn’t stop him. The next morning, he did it again, unfortunately I enjoyed it and then he dropped me home. I felt so guilty, but I was also afraid that he might take it as a 1-night stand and tell everyone about it. So, I kept in touch with him. I cried a lot. Gradually he made me feel like he loved me, and I started spending time with him although I didn’t feel good about it and I knew it was wrong, but he made me feel so special that I couldn’t resist, and we went under the sheets several times.

Just few weeks before the wedding my fiance got to know that I was spending time with someone else, I tried to fix it and apologized but he cancelled the wedding. It’s been 2 years now, I still miss him and regret my actions, but I felt left out and ignored that was why I tried to divert my mind, but it led to that situation. Though my ex fiance didn’t know about the physical thing, he just lost his trust and left me.

Now, I am married to someone else, for a year now and a lot happier but I still feel the pain, I still feel that void sometimes. I miss him, and I love him.

 

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2 Comments

  1. Well, you are married to another so kindly move on. We do not always get what we want and in your case it’s gonna be a disaster if you do.

    • Aydiya Martin Reply

      You’re an ass. Someone who experiences any form of nonconsensual sex or sexual activity is raped or sexually abused. That’s traumatizing. It doesn’t matter how long ago it was or even if you are with someone new. This person came to share their story and that’s totally fine. What isn’t okay is that you have to be a dick. Abusive relationships are extremely hard to leave. It wasn’t her fault. She may have gotten a new partner but she probably regrets what could have been.

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